Suck it up buttercup

I had to take a break from working to write this blog because it's been on my mind all day. I don't know if I am overly emotional today because it's almost that time of month or what's going on but I felt like God gave me a serious sign, or taught me a lesson, today and I want to share it with anyone that takes time to read this post.

I'll start by saying that nothing really about my day has been great. In fact, my day has been kind of shitty. I started by hitting my snooze button numerous times, that's nothing super new. As I was headed out the door to the gym, my bf, Tanner tossed me his headphones because I lost mine during the move. When he tossed them i remember thinking "dang that was a bold move to throw an expensive pair of headphones". Long story short, moments after thinking that, I dropped the headphones as I was putting Bentley in the car and unknowingly stepped on them...they broke.

When I discovered this, I immediately checked to see if they worked and started looking up the price of these headphones. I did not wanna go back home to face Tanner, (I really have no idea why because he's never beat me or yelled and he's a pretty calm guy). I was extremely mad at myself and called my mom and kinda got worked up and sat in my car for a good few minutes over a pair of headphones. Even though they're 100% replaceable.

When I called Tanner and he assured me that it wasn't a huge deal and that he didn't hate me, I got out of the car and went inside of where I needed to go. I had a conversation with a worker of where I was. (I'm not going to tell you exactly where I was or give out a lot of details just in case anybody local knows this guy).

While I was talking to him, Bentley kept laughing and talking like he was apart of the conversation. He kept showing the guy how he could talk to siri on my phone, and he was all around just being his cute, goofy self. Every time the guy laughed at B he would laugh back because he's a show off and knows when he gets people's attention. The man asked how old he was and seemed intrigued with Bentley. I mean, who doesn't like B? We made small talk, just because I was raised that that is the polite thing to do. I asked him if he had an kids. He said no. Then I asked if he wanted kids. He replied with a shaky voice and said "no actually my baby and her mother died in a car accident so I won't have anymore". My heart immediately dropped, tears welled up in my eyes and my entire expression changed. I think he noticed that because it seemed like he was choked up as well.

I walked out of there feeling extremely guilty for crying over a pair of headphones. I felt like Kim freaking Kardashian crying over a lost pair of earrings. Last night, I got emotional because I was cuddling Bentley in my arms and he felt like a little adult laying on me. I literally cried because my baby is GROWING up! I felt extremely guilty that my baby is healthily growing and learning new things everyday and he won't every get to walk his baby down the isle.

My point to this blog is, everything isn't as bad as it seems. There are always people in worse situations than yours and you never know what anyone might be going through no matter how friendly or smiley they appear. Like Kourtney Kardiasian says "Kim, there's people that are dying". But seriously, suck it up buttercup because your day really isn't that bad compared to someone else's.

Today I feel incredibly blessed with food to eat, a dry place to sleep, a healthy baby, and an amazing guy.